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Life of a Weirdo

by baldilocks

Some­times I for­get what a strange exis­tence I’ve lead since…birth.

I grew up as an odd­ball; the black girl with the “Chi­nese” last name, who’s good at math and Eng­lish. My non-​stereotypical world­view and inter­ests some­times get me in trou­ble, and this is espe­cially so online.

I’ve been accused of using a fake name — my birth name – on Dis­qus, been told that I was a white man using a black woman’s avatar on Twit­ter (lan­guage alert), been told to “go back to Africa” by my fel­low black Amer­i­cans, and been told to “stay out of Kenya” by some of the coun­try­men of my Kenyan family.

And just today I was accused of lying about my USAF back­ground as a Ger­man (and Russ­ian) lin­guist who was sta­tioned in then-​West Berlin in the 1980s and early 1990s. (It wasn’t the first time for this and, though I’m always hes­i­tant to point at some­thing and call it racism, it’s almost cer­tain that when some­one does not believe me when I say what I did for a liv­ing, it’s because of my outer coating.)

Am I whin­ing? No I don’t think I am, though it’s infu­ri­at­ing to have oth­ers deny your very exis­tence. Being a weirdo is fun and, though some might think it’s lonely, I enjoy being alone, for the most part — I have a low stu­pid­ity human­ity tolerance.

But, every time I start feel­ing just a lit­tle sorry for myself, one of the peo­ple who loves me, shows it and comes through for me — like our host and the per­son who rec­om­mended me for this gig.

That said, I want to show this audi­ence my plaque from my first stint in Berlin.

Yes, I left one month before the Wall fell — worst tim­ing ever. I watched the TV from thou­sands of miles away and spot­ted many of my friends stand on top of the Wall in merriment.

Such is this life that God gave me. I love it.

Juli­ette Akinyi Ochieng blogs at baldilocks. (Her older blog is located here.) Her first novel, Tale of the Tigers: Love is Not a Game, was pub­lished in 2012. Her sec­ond novel ten­ta­tively titled Arlen’s Harem, will be done on Feb­ru­ary 2017! Fol­low her on Twit­ter and on Gab​.ai.

Please con­tribute to Juliette’s JOB: Her new novel, her blog, her Inter­net to keep the lat­ter going and COF­FEE to keep her going!

Or hit Da Tech Guy’s Tip Jar in the name of Inde­pen­dent Journalism!

baldilocks

by baldilocks

Sometimes I forget what a strange existence I’ve lead since…birth.

I grew up as an oddball; the black girl with the “Chinese” last name, who’s good at math and English. My non-stereotypical worldview and interests sometimes get me in trouble, and this is especially so online.

I’ve been accused of using a fake name—my birth name–on Disqus, been told that I was a white man using a black woman’s avatar on Twitter (language alert), been told to “go back to Africa” by my fellow black Americans, and been told to “stay out of Kenya” by some of the countrymen of my Kenyan family.

And just today I was accused of lying about my USAF background as a German (and Russian) linguist who was stationed in then-West Berlin in the 1980s and early 1990s. (It wasn’t the first time for this and, though I’m always hesitant to point at something and call it racism, it’s almost certain that when someone does not believe me when I say what I did for a living, it’s because of my outer coating.)

Am I whining? No I don’t think I am, though it’s infuriating to have others deny your very existence. Being a weirdo is fun and, though some might think it’s lonely, I enjoy being alone, for the most part—I have a low stupidity humanity tolerance.

But, every time I start feeling just a little sorry for myself, one of the people who loves me, shows it and comes through for me—like our host and the person who recommended me for this gig.

That said, I want to show this audience my plaque from my first stint in Berlin.

Yes, I left one month before the Wall fell—worst timing ever. I watched the TV from thousands of miles away and spotted many of my friends stand on top of the Wall in merriment.

Such is this life that God gave me. I love it.

Juliette Akinyi Ochieng blogs at baldilocks. (Her older blog is located here.) Her first novel, Tale of the Tigers: Love is Not a Game, was published in 2012. Her second novel tentatively titled Arlen’s Harem, will be done on February 2017! Follow her on Twitter and on Gab.ai.

Please contribute to Juliette’s JOB:  Her new novel, her blog, her Internet to keep the latter going and COFFEE to keep her going!

Or hit Da Tech Guy’s Tip Jar in the name of Independent Journalism!

baldilocks